my name is jessica and this is my blog
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2010.01.11（Mon）11:03
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new blog
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this is my new cutesy blog, on which i will post pictures of outfits and stuff right now it has nothing interesting--just posts about how my day was/what i ate that day http://goodluckspider.blogspot.com/ |
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2010.01.09（Sat）08:27
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whee
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here are some of the things i bought today  it's all for fairy kei outfits, lol  
bags:  in pink  in pink
skirts:  in pink & purple
hair ties (to be used as bracelets):
tights: light pink, lavender
socks: light blue, yellow, lavender
well, lately i've been doing well with eating. i only eat when i need to, and i watch how much i eat and what i'm eating. my daily calorie intake has been 200-300. it's kind of rough because i feel sick from hunger, and i am really tired. i have no energy to run on, so it is difficult for me to climb up & down several flights of stairs several times during school with all of my books 
it's my hubby's birthday tomorrow |
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2010.01.08（Fri）08:37
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diet
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i'm on a diet with a daily intake limit of 300 calories. i'm also working out as much as i can without feeling like i am literally about to pass out, lol
i'm just like -watches science channel and runs- OnO;;;; OH, BEAR GRILLS? FUCK, I HATE BEAR GRILLS. "OH, HELP ME CAMERA MAN, HELP ME! I'M STUCK IN A DITCH!"
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2010.01.07（Thu）08:04
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hair
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i can't wait to have long hair XD but... i have to wait 2 years, i guess~ and even then it won't be super duper long, haha... well, that's fine
oh, today a friend of mine said i'd look cute with black hair... but then my other friend made a disgusted face, so... q-q;;;;
^i got that gyaru pic (and edited it, lol) from a blog i'm following only to steal gyaru drawings from, lol when i have long hair and nice clothes i want to start a cute blog, so i am collecting emoticons, banners, etc. |
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2010.01.03（Sun）08:24
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2010...
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so, it's 2010 now... 
some of my goals... hehe  learn to make more food feel cute add more 60s manga to my collection study
this year, i want to begin growing out my hair, have a cute wardrobe, design more, draw more, become thin, and most of all i want to make progress in battling my pain disorder, so i can become happy   i would also like to get a job, but no one will hire me for a real job because i am too young q__q uuugh... i want to earn money so i can buy cute things! i want to dress a little bit like this girl, with pretticoats, angelic pretty socks, popples and 6%dokidoki accessories... y__y= 
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2009.12.28（Mon）15:15
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uwagh
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so i saw a play today with meen chan i liked some of the dancing and music and stuff it was okay and um then we played zelda on virtual console : p  my attention span is so short, i am always like "finish this dungeon for me!! -watches-" . x .;;
and umm
omg now i want tofu and rice, looking at that gif of sailor moon  lol /fatass ok ok so like today was really nice because i got to spend it with meen chan jxj=  but i think i'm spoiled because any time someone asks me to hang out, i'm just like NO I DON'T WANNA ONLY MEEN CHAN IS GOOD /FLIES AWAY OK OK AND LIKE TODAY WE ATE PIZZA  AND LIKE IDK my favorite part of the day was hugging him in bed jnj= it was like heaven and i didn't want it to end... next time he comes over i am gonna make him hug me for like 8 hours LOL
YAY EVIL PLANS YAY   |
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2009.12.25（Fri）04:06
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tired, as usual
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well, i'm not feeling so great today, because i didn't get to see my d.h. but i get to see him on saturday AND sunday~ QwQ= (squeeee!!)
it's gonna be so nice... but not as nice as fire island in the summer, hehe... i'll get to be with him all day and we'll be able to sleep in the same... er... house... D: and maybe this year i'll conquer my fear of going into the ocean, which i got because i almost drowned one year x__x;; well, uh... yeah
fun fun fun
but umm i've been feeling better about my designs/designing more recently. in u.s. history class i whipped out like 7 ideas for different pieces (while watching a movie on the civil war), which i am going to build on/perfect later...
it's all spring/summer... that seems to be my specialty... winter just involves big, bulky, thick things to keep people warm, and i'm not so great at that... coats have never been my thing. small jackets, alright, but not big coats. meh. :x
anyway, my friend gave me some great ideas when they were watching me sketch out stuff. he also comes to me with his ideas for himself and we talk about them. i think it's nice to be able to talk to him about fashion, not just because we're both interested in it, but the things we design are completely different.
ohh i'm rambling on and on... .___.;;
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2009.12.15（Tue）07:29
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fffffffff
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meen chan i know you are going to see this, so i'd like to say that i had a fantastic weekend thanks to you, and, honestly, right now i'm happier than i ever have been in my life. this is taking ages to type, because even though i know just how i feel and what i want to say, i can't get it out right. everything i start to type seems corny and average--you know, the sort of thing you see on some out-of-focus photo, written in white, and with lowercase letters. something stupid like "you are my everything." you're sweet, handsome, funny, hardworking, smart, and everything else that is good... you do so much for me, even when it's just listening to me ramble on about things you couldn't care less about. but, god, when i do make you smile... it's like jesus just flew down from heaven and told me that i'm his new best friend. and when we kiss... i feel like a stoned, spinning hippie at a grateful dead concert. i want to be with you for the rest of my life--throughout college, when i am trying to get on my feet with my career, through whatever hits us... i want to be with you when i have wrinkles on my face, lavender in my hair and chains on my clothes, and you're all grouchy because you feel too hot with a sweater-vest over your button-down in the springtime, and kids keep running across the lawn. seriously though, nothing makes me happier than just knowing that we will be able to spend our lives together. of course, not everything can be perfect, and we will go through hardships, but i finally feel happy just being, and not once did i ever think i'd say something like that and not be telling a lie. |
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2009.12.10（Thu）06:31
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bleh
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i've been editing pictures of black jack and pinoko because i am a loser here is a small one so i don't pagestretch hahah
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2009.12.08（Tue）12:25
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ughghgh
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my friend does the worst introductions so one of the school staff members wanted my friend to talk to a new girl and make her feel more comfortable, so he decided to introduce her to our closest friends. the girl had an ENORMOUS blingyblingy expensive cross necklace, so i was being extra careful about what i said and how i acted so that she didn't feel uncomfortable and my friend goes "this is jessica; she's ugly and nobody likes her. mariel is a pedophile and gabe likes money and drugs." the girl looked horrified, and then she looked at my buddha necklace with wide eyes for a few seconds, studying it, and then leaned back, looking scared out of her mind.
later i saw her bump into the only other hardcore christian in the entire school (who screams at people about pro-life crap and threatens them and i want to punch her) and they started chit-chatting and making friends with one another and then a little later i see them making friends with another girl who prides herself on the fact that she has been having sex with adults since she was 11. i nearly peed myself laughing
uhh also this new kid wanted me to go to his house today and i was like "ohh i can't... i have to do something" and he kept on asking what i had to do, so i told him i had to go home and take my medicine. at first he asked if it was for depression, schizophrenia, adhd, etc. but when i told him it wasn't anything like that he was like "ohh... to... prevent..." and i thought he understood so i laughed and felt better but then he was like "what? answer me. what is it preventing from happening...?" so i was like "uhh... b... baby?" and he literally SCREAMED "YOU'RE ON THE PILL!?!??!?!?!?!!" then, he continued to yell "OH WELL IT'S A GOOD THING THAT YOU'RE DOING THAT IF YOU'RE HAVING SEXUAL INTERCOURSE JESSICA BECAUSE THAT'S VERY RESPONSIBLE AND THE LAST THING YOU WANT IS A BABY OR AN ABORTION SO THAT'S GOOD JESSICA" until he noticed that i was saying "STOP STOP KEEP YOUR VOICE DOWN" and then he started whispering. i died he didn't even let me explain my situation y___y i tried to but it was like "ah w-well i mean i know i'm o-o-only a kid but i um it's really not... it's not like... we're really in love, and, well, one day, we--" and then he just talked over me like "YEAH YEAH I KNOW TEENAGERS CAN'T REALLY HELP IT I UNDERSTAND" Y__________________Y it's not my fault he found out i just didn't wanna lie and say i had schizophrenia XD i don't like to lie to nice people |
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